wow check this shit out.

So i like horoscopes and stuff like that. I like to read about sign compatibility between taurus (me) and other signs. My boyfriend happens to be an aquarius and this is what i happen to find!

The Taurus woman and the Aquarius man are fascinated by each other’s very different personalities.

The Aquarius man loves to be alone or with a million pals and needs more freedom than anyone else.

As long as the Taurus woman can tolerate the Aquarius man’s ex-lovers being his friends, the combination is good for a fun-loving affair.
(http://www.eastrolog.com/horoscope-love-match/taurus-woman-aquarius-man.php)

WTF!

He loves me...He loves me not

:) i feel soooooooooo much better. Everything got worked out annnnnd it just feels like i'll be able to not be so sad anymore! I seriously thought that if i asked him to stop talking to his ex that he would refuse and that would just break me down. But I was wrong and i'm happy that i was wrong. Becauase i really do love him; i feel like he really showed me today that he does love me as much as i love him. enough of this LOVVEE business...i got my camcorder and haven't recorded myself yet. lol. i suck at life. plus i look terrible on camera without make-up, puffy eyes, hair a mess. And it makes me sad to admit that....my lips aren't just right for my face...my lips are just big :( lol. ugh.

<3 eileen

fuckingpeiceofshit

i'm sorry if it seems that all my posts are about negative things. but its 12:23 AM and i don't wanna wake anybody up with the same bullshit. as a matter of fact i just don't wanna talk to anyone right now. I'm so angry, hurt, i don't know. I DON'T KNOW. i can't stand it. this is a rant if you couldn't already tell. I'm not someone who self-loathes and wants pity and shit. i'm usually a very happy person. but i've cried more in the past couple months than ever. It's not fair to me. i don't deserve this. i deserve to have someone who wakes up with ME on their mind and not some other girl. i'm not happy. i don't want to be angry everyday. there's always something. I could be having the best fucking day ever and i go home and see something that upsets me. i'm really tired of it. i cant even say half the things i wanna say on here.